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Sorry guys…

Thursday, September 14, 2006 8:16 20 Comments

I know a lot of you are wondering why I haven’t been posting as much here lately. I still love you guys but I am going through some turmoil in my personal life. I feel my world is falling apart and at the same time being put back together to be better than ever!

My boyfriend and I broke up a few weeks ago. I have moved into my own place with my dogs and am starting all over once again. My boyfriend was very good to me but I am not sure he is the one for me. Maybe he is and in time we will get back together but maybe he isn’t but I feel the separation is necessary to sort my life out. I miss him a lot and all the fun times we had together. He was the best man I have ever been with. I want more out of life though. I want to get married someday and have a family of my own. I am not sure we are on the same path.

I have just been working on myself lately. I am sorry if it seems I don’t care anymore because I am not posting on my forum and website like I used to. There is so much going on right now that I can’t share with you guys just yet and some stuff I just simply can’t share at all. Just be patient with me and know that it will all work out.

XOXO
Crissy

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New Worries

Tuesday, August 15, 2006 6:59 1 Comment

Sorry about the long rant on my last diary about the porn business. I had a lot on my mind I had to get out.

Right now I am in New Mexico with my man since he now has to work for another 2 weeks. I didn’t have much going on at home and would rather be out here to have fun when he has his days off!

Anyhow, I had some bizarre symptoms happen to me yesterday. I was out running errands and went to the mall with my boyfriend and I got a migraine. I could see see through zig zag lines in my right eye and they were moving around, I got dizzy, and could not speak well or remember things. This went on for about 40 minutes or so. Then I got a splitting headache when the vision thing went away. After about an hour of a headache my tongues started tingling in the went numb on the right side of my mouth. Then that started fading after 3-4 minutes and my bottom lip did the same thing on the right side then the top lip. After a little while that went away and my hand did the same thing starting with my right thumb then going through all my fingers 2 fingers at a time and then ending at my wrist. I still had a headache at the same time and about 20 min after all this numbness surged through me the headache went away. We were at the mall during most of this and I got really panicky and thought about going to the emergency room but I didn’t really want to. I wanted to see if it would just go away and the rest of the day and evening I felt fine. A few friends said it could possibly be because of the high altitude but I didn’t feel this at all the first day I was here. I did some searching on google to see what it could be and it could be a million different things so I don’t know what is going on with me. I called around today to some doctors and the ER and they basically said if it happens again to come in. They said for my age it is pretty unusual but since I feel fine today there isn’t much they can do and it would be better if I would have gone in during the strange episode.

Anyway, my man is at the set doing his thing and I am going to go hang out there in a bit and see what’s going on and take some pics on the set if I can to share. :-)

Have a good day everyone!

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Crissy’s Take on the Industry

Friday, August 11, 2006 22:00 4 Comments

Hi Guys!

I just wanted to say I am very sorry about the webcam incidents I have been having lately. The network that I was on was functioning fine for a while until my webmaster tried to test another girls cam and now we have no tech support back from the site. Needless to say we have found a new network that will be used on our own servers so we won’t need any outside tech support once it is set up. I think it might take a little while to set it all up and I am sorry for that but it is very involved. I am hoping at the most I will be back in a week or two and resuming my normal one webcam show a week! I miss you guys! Oh and Roby, no need to email me demanding for me to email you back. I do the best I can but I am not always available to you personally.

I worked for a catfighting website the other day with Celeste Star. Wow she is so pretty!! I felt bad though because I kept being too rough with her on accident. In the catfight scenes we basically have to simulate fighting… you know pulling hair, biting, scratching, etc. I threw her on the bed and she hit the wall and then accidentally hit her face on my hip bone. Then in the second scene I accidentally pushed her chair back and she fell straight back and hit her head again. I felt so bad and just kept telling her how sorry I was. The guys filming kept filming because it was good action but Celeste was a little afraid of me after that incident. She knew it was an accident though and wasn’t made at me. Hopefully I can get her to shoot with me for my site sometime. I think she would be up for it.

My boyfriend went back out of town for a few days to do more stunt work on the show he has been working on for the sci-fi channel. Last night my friend Jaime Hammer came by and we hung out and talked for a few hours. Today I went to spa with >Lisa Daniels and we had facials and massages. It was nice but now my face is burning still! I had a glycolic facial and I guess my face might peel a little for a couple of days. In the end it will look and feel better. It was great to see Lisa. She looked so hot! She was wearing some tight jeans and a white tanktop and just looked sexy as ever even though she had no makeup on!

I have been a little disturbed lately. I have been spending a lot of time online lately reading a porn message board that a lot of other pornstars post on (mostly girls and guys who do gonzo porn). Then today a member of my forum made an interesting post about he was leaving my forum and was not going to look at porn anymore because it started to consume him and he felt that it was poisoning his mind. He also mentioned that a lot of the girls who were doing porn were majorly fucked up mentally and get even more so after being in the industry. I knew what he meant because a lot of the things I had been reading about on this other porn forum and a couple of blogs left me feeling a little upset as well.

When I got into the business I started off topless and started a website while living in Florida. I came to L.A. to do some shooting for magazines and some movies and started doing more explicit stuff. I made a few moves from Florida to San Diego then to Vegas and now I am in L.A. I did some hardcore features with my boyfriend. My scenes reflected me. I was never on any drugs. I did not do over-the-top scenes and I was never abused during my scenes. I had never even really watched a porn before. I thought it was basically two or more people having sex doing the usual 3-4 positions, a blowjob, and a pop shot. Since I have found these message boards and have been reading them I have seen more of the dark side of this business. I am not sure but I think most of these girls are more prevalent in the “gonzo” porn world. From what I have read it sounds like a lot of these girls have come from really bad childhoods and basically get offered the chance to make some good money and they jump at it. They start doing drugs and become addicts and can’t do a scene without the drugs because the scenes they are doing are so degrading. The men are abusing them and donkey punching them or fucking them in their mouths until they throw up while calling them whores. They do more drugs to mask the way they feel. They lose all self worth and stay in the business because it is good money and helps support their drugs habits. I even saw a few clips of a girl who is obviously high on meth or ecstasy and her eyes roll back in her head and she looks totally demonic. I am not saying I have never taken anything because I have but I am not an addict by any means but never when I was working. I saw several clips of this girl like this. I am upset that no one regulates things. It’s the only job you can go to and be fucked up. I am thankful that we are atleast required to be HIV/STD tested withing 30 days of doing a scene but why no restrictions on the drugs? Is it because the comsumers won’t get the type of scenes that they have become used to? I feel so sad for the girls who have had a hard life and start doing porn and are not strong enough to break the cycles they have been going through all their lives and the porn industry does nothing to regulate it. Even when I am at shoots I hear rumors about other porn girls who are currently in the business and doing so many drugs and doing insane things to themselves and being in and out of the hospital from near death experiences and all the while the person who is telling the story is laughing and they are suppose to be their friend! I just don’t get it. How can people be so callous?

It’s just strange to me…

I never realized what a screwed up industry I was in.

Anyway, I am sorry I just had to say what was on my mind.

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My boyfriend’s back hey la

Tuesday, August 1, 2006 1:34 No Comments

Well, the financing for my new car fell through. I might be able to make it happen though so we’ll see!

My boyfriend just got back in town after 4 days. I feel like everything is out of whack right now. I missed him so much it is crazy! I am so sensitive. It was hard to sleep and relax with him not here. We have been dating for a year and a half and he is almost always home with me. I am happy he is home again now!

While he was away I went to lunch one day with my friend Red Ezra at Wood Ranch and then I went and bought the 2nd season of Nip/Tuck. I began watching it and am now on disk 4 of season 2. I also went a visited a makeup artist I know who just had a baby. It was so precious! OMG!! He was so tiny (just 7 lbs) and so sweet. I bought him a gift over. I also worked on getting some more new pictures over to my website designer for my redesign. I am anxious to see what he comes up with! Other than that I didn’t do much else. I spent a lot of time with Blade and Jade and had to take care of my boyfriends iguanas by feeding them and doing minimal cleaning to their cage. I am a bit afraid of them so I did the best I could. They are smelly creatures!!

Today I am getting my hair trimmed and not sure what else. I am ready for a nice (late) breakfast. :-)

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Some news from me!

Thursday, July 27, 2006 22:44 No Comments

In my last diary entry I mentioned shooting with a couple of girls with big names that my fans had suggested on my forum and now that I have I will tell you who they are! Aria Giovanni and pornstar Devon (used to be with Digital Playground)! Holly Randall shot me with Aria and I won’t get the pics back from her for a week or so. The shoot with Aria went really great and the pics came out beautiful! I can’t wait to get them back! The shoot with Devon was shot by my good friend Red Ezra and he also shot a sex scene for an upcoming movie he plans to release. She was super hot! I won’t get the pics until Red is close to releasing the movie he shot us for so it might be a couple of months yet.

My man went out of town to work on a television show for the sci-fi channel so I was home alone last night. I talked on the phone with my good friend Angie Savage for hours as she told me about a horrific shoot she had yesterday and wished she had shot with me instead of the girls she was hooked up with! She loves me :-) awww… she does! I think the world of her too!! Then I also talked to my friend Jaime Hammer who never ceases to make me laugh! She found some club ad for girls gone wild that had stole a pic of me and her and used it for the main pic! She was really mad and is going to have her attorney call the club who is using the pic. I told her atleast we look hot in the pic!! haha!! Jaime and I are going to go shopping in Friday!! Woo hoo!!

Today I shot for a new up and coming website called glamouredge.com. The shoot went by really fast and was pretty simple. I was impressed that we shot so quickly. Then I went to test drive a new mercedes. I really want to trade my 350z for one so hopefully I can work that out soon. I kind of got ripped off when buying my Nissan and paid way over the sticker price because of credit issues so for the same price I could drive something that is worth the amount I am paying.

I bought the 2nd season of Nip/Tuck and going to start watching it tonight! I watched the whole 1st season in 2 days (13 episodes!!)… I am so addicted!!

Alright guys… that’s all for now! xoxoxo Crissy

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So who has Crissy M been shooting with.Part 1

Tuesday, July 25, 2006 13:14 1 Comment

How does Aria Giovanni sound! These 2 goddesses did some photos together just the other day for us to enjoy. WOW i cant wait to see the set of these.. Crissy Moran members are in for a real treat! Ive always loved Aria Giovanni and her big natural boobies.. see Crissy M and Aria BOOB TO BOOB

Aria Giovanni Crissy m

Keep an eye out in the members area for when these pics get released!

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whats happening with me!

Friday, July 21, 2006 11:08 No Comments

Sorry I got a little behind with my diary! I have been procrastinating like crazy!

Anyway, I shot for Matrix content on the 14th and 17th. The shoots went well and I get all the content for my website! I shot on the 14th with Angie Savage and on the 17th with Lisa Daniels. I love it when I get to workl with my friends! The photographer reminded me of Jack Black… so funny! I did 2 girl/girl sets of pics with the other girls and 1 video with each one and about 5 solo sets of pictures! Angie was all over me… it was so cute! Even when we weren’t shooting she was licking my pussy and telling me she loves me!

A few months ago my boyfriend had fallen asleep in bed and as he was snoring away I was surfing the channels because I had insomnia. I am not a T.V. watcher and never get sucked into shows but I came across Nip/Tuck that night and could not stop watching it! I saw maybe 3 episodes and could never remember when to tune in or when it was one so none of them ever really went with the past episode. Well, anyway my boyfriend went out of town for 3 days and I bought the entire 1st season and watched it. 13 episodes in 2 days! I am so addicted to it!

Oh yeah…I have two big shoots with some pretty popular models on Saturday and Sunday but I don’t want to say too much about it until after the shoots! I will get all the content for my site and I know my fans will be very happy! :-)

XOXO
Crissy

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Hot shoot with Teanna Kai

Monday, July 10, 2006 15:42 No Comments

I am so exhausted!! Today I had a great shoot with my friend Teanna Kai. The pics are so pretty and I can’t wait to show them to you guys. I also shot 3 solo sets as well that came out really nice.

I went to the shoot with a bad hangover. I am really not a big drinker and I went to a pool party the other night and tried to out drink everyone!! haha! Another model I know Carli Banks showed up at the party and I was trying to get her to have some drinks with me (I already had 3 small margaritas at this point!) and she said she would do a shot with me. She did a shot of rum and I did a shot of tequila and that just did it! She is such a cute girl!! After the shot I proceeded to drink 3 coronas. I couldn’t help it though because I was just having the best time! I was listening to live music in the garage and I was really feeling it! After I got home I had passionate sex with my honey and it was like the best ever. It felt soooo good having him inside me…. oh my god!

This morning was a whole other story! I actually got sick and had a hard time eating any food in the morning. I ate a little bit here and there and now my appetite is back. I almost called Teanna and said I wasn’t going to make it to the shoot but I told myself I had to! I wanted to shoot with her and I can’t just flake out. I had obligations to do the shoot and I did it and so glad I did! The pics are so hot!

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Sorry To Reschedule My Webcam Show!

Friday, July 7, 2006 16:08 No Comments

I will do a 2 hour show on Saturday to make up for it!! I had personal things to take care of today and had to make a last minute cancellation. Don’t worry I still love you guys and will make it up to you!!

Kisses,

Crissy

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CAM SHOW!! Monday July 3

Monday, July 3, 2006 9:06 3 Comments

Dont miss out guys on my hot cam shows.. come and see me live.. i love a big crowd!
Monday July 3 at 7:00pm PST / 10:00pm EST / Tue 4:00am CEST!

It’s members only, so Join Now to see and chat to your favorite girl!

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LA Erotica

Monday, July 3, 2006 4:19 No Comments

I went to my first LA Erotica convention and it was alright. It was a pretty large convention and I did run into quite a few fans. It was tought though to walk through the crowds and find any girls I knew to take pics with for my website because everytime my friend Lisa A Daniels and I took a couple of steps we would get stopped by fans who wanted to take pics with us or of us. We would try to shoot with everyone so it slowed down my ability to get snapshots of my own for my website. I did manage to get a few and found one of my good friends Jaime Hammer while I was there.

I hope you guys are enjoying the new snapshots of me and my hot friend Sandee I just added today! I will have a hot new gallery soon of that shoot! It was a really sexy shoot!

Love and kisses
Crissy M

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Erotica L.A.

Saturday, June 24, 2006 17:15 1 Comment

I won’t be “signing” at the Erotica LA but tomorrow (Saturday) I do plan to be walking the floor! I will be there at 6pm for a radio interview with my friend Lisa Daniels by Dave Navarro. I will also be walking around with my friends Sandee Westgate, Jaime Hammer, Puma Swede, and of course Lisa Daniels.

If you see me don’t be shy and come by and say hello!!

I will be wearing a white satin corset and jeans!! :-) (Oh and don’t forget I am very petite.. (5ft2in) a lot of times people don’t recognize me because I look bigger in my pics!!)

Speaking of Erotica L.A. a funny/flattering thing happened tonight. My boyfriend has a friend and his girlfriend that we have always hung out with. We went out for a little while tonight and then after we came home and I was getting things situated for the show they called us up and my boyfriends, friends girlfriend puts her older sister (who I have never met) on the phone and she tells me she had planned to go to the show just to get my autograph! She tells me how she is a huge fan of mine!! I am just flattered!! I have a lot of female fans and I love it! It is just so strange because I have been hanging out with this couple for over a year and the older sister had no idea that I was friends with them!! Small world!! (BTW… I have seen pics of the older sister and she is super hot!!!) :-)

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Erotica LA/ Auction

Friday, June 23, 2006 7:12 No Comments

Hey guys,

I have had some time off this week and just been relaxing at home. Feels great! This weekend I plan to go and walk around the Erotica LA show ( http://www.erotica-la.com ) on Saturday evening. If you see me don’t be afraid to say hello. I will be with my good friends Lisa Daniels, Sandee Westgate, and Puma Swede. Lisa and I plan to get there around 6 pm since we have a radio interview to do and not sure how long we will stick around.

I also wanted to let you guys know about my current auction … notmuch time left to bid:

http://www.eroticmodelbids.com/auctiondetails.php?id=396

Kisses,

Crissy

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Shot With Sandee Westgate Yesterday!

Saturday, June 17, 2006 8:50 No Comments

Last night I got to shoot with my fav babe of all time, Sandee Westgate. She looked so hot and we got naughtier than we ever have together in the pics! I got plenty of behind the scenes shots! We shot on an orange lamborghini wearing sexy black lingerie. We used toys in this gallery and tongues in the video that goes with it. Let me tell you she really knows how to use that sexy pierced tongue of hers… oh my god!!! We also talked about doing some sort of dvd together to sell on our sites so we’ll see what happens!

I shot a solo set on a blue 350Z also and those pictures came out incrdible but not as exciting as my girl/girl!

I have some good news about my Hustler magazine shoot but I need to make one more phone call to verify what I am pretty sure of before I blab my mouth about it. I always tend to get over excited and then something falls through. I will share it with you guys as soon as I am able.

I am shooting with Sandee today again for the Wicked Temptations lingerie catalogue ( http://wickedtemptations.com ) so I need to go get myself ready!

I need to reschedule my webcam show. I forgot that Sunday was Father’s Day (shame on me!) Have a great weekend guys!

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Glamourcon 38 Is Over!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006 17:26 No Comments

I made a post to my diary yesterday but it must have taken too long and when I hit save it got lost!

Anyway,

Glamourcon was a lot of fun. It was a lot smaller of a show than usual and was only held in one ballroom instead of two. I had a great time meeting fans and actually had more time to speak with everyone since the show was smaller. Thank you to all who came out to meet me! I also got to meet a lot of photographers which is good. I will be shooting some cool edgy stuff with some great people I have never worked with for my website. I got a lot of pictures with the girls I know and some I just met at Glamourcon and I will post them up soon on my website. I also got to talk to some girls about shooting for our websites. I have plans to shoot in the future with some very hot ladies like Nina Mercedez, Valentina Vaughn, and Meriah Nelson. :-) It was also great to meet some of the Twistys.com crew (I sat at their booth with Valentina, Jelena Jensen, and Bridget Banks.) They are some of the nicest people ever!

Tomorrow I am shooting some new content for my website with Twistys.com photographer Dean Capture. He has to be one of the nicest photographers ever! He always makes me smile in my pics and brings out the best in me so I know we will get some good stuff!!

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SHOPPING DAY!!

Saturday, June 10, 2006 17:27 No Comments

My shoot for CA Exotics went very well yesterday! I didn’t get to take any snapshots though. I have worked with the photographer, Don Mantooth a lot through the years so it was good to see him again. The pictures came out beautifully!

Today, I went shopping all day in Hollywood and on Melrose with my friend Puma Swede OMG… we shopped til we dropped! We started shopping at 11 a.m. until about 7:30 p.m. I think I have found someone who likes to shop just as much as I do!! I took my camera but we forgot to take pics dammit! Oh well, I am sure we will be having many more shopping trips to come!

My feet are aching… gonna go soak them now!

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Shot For Girlvana 2 Today

Thursday, June 8, 2006 1:31 No Comments

Today I shot for a company called Zero Tolerance for a popular title called “Girlvana 2”. I got to shoot my scene with my good friend Angie Savage who I really have the hots for! It was one of my favorite girl/girl shoots ever! The theme for the movie is good girls vs. bad girls and all the good girls will be on eone disk and the bad girls on the other. Angie and I were “good girls” so for the box cover shot we wore really cute pink and black lingerie. The two girls who shot their scene before us were Katja Kassin and Courtney Cumms (Zero Tolerance’s contract girl) and they were the “bad girls”. We don’t all shoot out scenes at the same time but we shoot in the same scenarios. So basically Courtney and Katja shot in the hot tub and then the bedroom and so did Angie and I. The scenarios were similiar but the other girls were the bad girls and did a very naughty scene then the good girls do a softer more passion filled girl/girl scene. It should be a very cool movie and I believe there will be 8 total scenes in the movie. I got a ton of snapshots for you guys too!!!

Yesterday I had another celebrity siting! I was shopping in Hollywood at a couple of shops one called Forplay and one called Playmates. Well, as soon as I walked in Playmates I saw one of my favorite celebrities of all time!! Carmen Electra! I didn’t talk to her at all because she seemed deep into her lingerie shopping plus I got super nervous! I mean I have a folder on my computer where I have been collecting pictures of her so I guess I was a bit star struck! She was so tiny in real life! She was the same height as me and had such a tiny body! She was wearing a very plain black sundress and flip flops and had little to no makeup on. She was still beautiful to me though! I was so excited and nervous to see her in there!

This weekend on Saturday and Sunday I will be attending the Glamourcon show here in L.A. Please come and meet me!!! I will be at the Twistys.com booth with some other hot girls like Jelena Jensen and Valentina Vaughn!! I was Twistys.com “Treat of the Month” for April. To get more info on the show go to : http://www.glamourcon.com. Please come say hello and get an autographed picture from me! I truly love meeting my fans!!

Tomorrow I am shoot for a company called California Exotics. I am not sure but I think it is for box covers of adult toys or maybe their catalogue. I will let you guys know how it goes!! Have a good night!!

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My Hustler Magazine Shoot

Monday, June 5, 2006 22:36 No Comments

I had my Hustler Magazine shoot yesterday and it went very well! It was a lot of fun and I even got a few snapshots for my site. The set was pretty, my makeup and hair looked nice, and the pictures came out very pretty!! They shot both cover and centerfold shots but Larry Flynt has the last say in who gets cover and centerfold. Both the art director and the photographer said that my shots should make it though so we’ll see!! I was suprised how difficult it was for me to hold the poses though. I guess I am used to only holding the poses for a shot or two then changing to a new one but for this type of shoot I had to hold the poses much longer. Once I got into the poses they wanted they would send the makeup guy in to fix my hair or adjust my clothing. Then the photographer would take so long to focus and to get each shot just right. My body would start to shake or feel like it would just give out! I guess in the end it was worth it because they let me look through the shots on the computer and almost every shot was a winner!

Today it is so hot outside! It will be in the 90’s all next week. I am just happy that it isn’t cold out. I really dislike cold weather. I like to be able to wear skirts and dresses and cute sandals! haha!

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Busy Bee

Thursday, June 1, 2006 16:43 1 Comment

Today was a really hot day today in the valley!! I didn’t do too much today but run errands. I also did a lot of chores around the house. If there is one thing I hate to do is cleaning but I did enough today to last for a while! My boyfriend is a real neat freak so he likes everything perfect all the time. I like that about him though because it keeps me on my toes. I don’t like to live in filth but I would rather hire someone to clean for me.

My shoot the other day for bikiniriot.com went pretty good. The weather was a little weird that day but overall I am pretty sure we got some good stuff. They plan to put the first pictorial out the first week of June sometime is all goes as planned. They had a new makeup artist who was very sweet but she did my makeup a little different than I am used to so I am very curious to see how it turns out in the pics! :-)

I did a shoot on the 28th for Hustler video for a movie called Hustler Exposed #2. I did a hot girl/girl scene with a really cute girl named Codi Milo. She was really sexy! I am going to try and get her to do a shoot with me sometime for my site.

Tomorrow I am shooting with fmconcepts.com with my friend Charlie Laine and then on Friday I am shooting a solo girl layout for Hustler Magazine. They are going to shoot centerfold shots and also cover shots as well. The way it works is they pay me for the shoot a base rate and then if I get chosen for cover or centerfold they pay me additional rate. There is no guarantee I will get chosen for either though. Hopefully all will go well though and I will… keep your fingers crossed!!

Since I was called to do the Hustler shoot on Friday I decided to reshcedule my next LIVE webcam show to Sunday at 2 pm pacific!!

Okay guys I am going to rest my weary body…. haha.. goodnight!!

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Don’t forget my CAM show on Saturday

Saturday, May 27, 2006 14:16 1 Comment

Hi guys.. CAM show Saturday

Show is on Saturday the 27th at 5pm pacific in my members area!

Not a member? you wont get to see my CAM show.. so SIGNUP HERE!!

come on i wanna see you all there!!

XOXO Crissy

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